itai..........

What a surprise I got today........

Reality sucks.....see? again it shot me right at my heart. But this time shot me, kicked me, stabbed me........have no idea how my heart looks like now. Maybe like a porridge? heart porridge, thick and red because of the blood soup.

Just after I tried to trust you. Just after I am trying so damn hard to believe the hope you offered me.

Why this happened to me....AGAIN....how could I handle it this time.....?

What Am I to you actually........? Did I ever have any place in your heart? To all that have happened, what am I to you?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! This is my HEART you're playing of, honey......

Help me...help me.............